I am Shaam
Fernando from Wennappuwa - Sri Lanka, I am married and we have one
child . I am 35 years old. First of all I should say that I am sorry
for my poor English usage here. But for the glory of the Lord, I should
mention my experience any how.
I am a graduate in the field of business administration of the
university of Sri Jayawardenapura. My wife's parents took about 75% of
my expenses of the university life. Before my marriage, my mother in
law said that they do not expect a higher luxury life but a simple
life. I also prefer to a simple life style and then I dreamed to spend
a satisfactory life, because expectations of both my parents in law and
me were almost same. At that time, my parents in law were working in
Italy and my wife is the only child they have. In some incidents, I
felt, some times, that it would be difficult to live with my wife's
parents. But I loved them so much that my heart did not accept that
difficulty. Any way, after our marriage in 2001, they went Italy again
and we settled at their home.
After my degree, I did several jobs, but I could not satisfy with them.
I started a small business as a part time work with my job. The
business was - I brought some products from Italy through my wife's
parents and supplied them to super markets and shops. That business was
run in very small scale but I could build up a good relationship with
banks and super markets. My wife's parents came back to Sri Lanka at
May 2006 to settle here (for not going to Italy again). Within this 5
years period from my marriage, I had many bad experiences from my
wife's parents and those incidents broke my heart severely. There was a
clear gap between my wife's parents and me instead of the love which
was in my heart. When they live with us, the situation became worse.
There was no more love in my heart towards them.
I needed to get separated from them. Actually, if I tell the truth I
needed to give them a lesson of return rather than just getting
separated from them. So I needed to have a separate luxury home as soon
as possible. I needed to show my wife's parents that I also can build a
luxury house. I needed to punish them. If I really needed only to get
separated from my wife's parents, I should have decided to find a home
or annex on rent.
I asked my brother to give me his land for getting a bank loan for a
massive expansion of my business. Because of the relationship with the
bank I had built up, the bank approved me Rs. 3.4 Million (around US $
31,000). I imported a very large quantity of biscuits from Italy after
getting information of a market research. Before I import the goods, I
felt the risk of fail of the business. But I was pushed by the pressure
of the family background to import that very large quantity of
biscuits. My target was to own a luxury home as soon as possible and to
be a rich man closing the problems from my wife's parents. But my
collapse began from that point.
My business failed and collapsed. Now the total of my debts is Rs. 7
Million (around US $ 63,500). I tried to save the land from the bank by
paying the bank installments from out side personal loans. Finally I am
in a problem of both bank loan and out side loan. If the land mortgaged
to the bank was mine, certainly I would give up the land to be owned to
the bank. But now I can't do that, because that land is of my brother.
Till June of last year, I lived with my parents in law with very
dangerous anger. Some times I felt to assault my wife parents. I should
say one thing. In every incident, my wife was with me, she understood
every thing clearly.
That is my story seen by a human eye.
But after June of last year, I saw the Lord's plan regarding me. Till
June of last year, there was a big gap between the church and me and I
observed the religion in my own way of which I thought correct. When
the pressure from my parents in law came to me, I decided and I
selected the solution. I made operated what I wanted and prayed the God
to help me. When the God did not help me, I went some other places to
get my business successful. So I lived in the darkness.
One day, one of our relatives had told of my wife about the pray
meeting conducted by The Community of Risen Lord. But I told my wife
“no results from those things and don't go there”. But she told me
about the pray meeting several times and finally I accompanied her and
dropped her at the pray meeting and I went super markets, shops etc to
spend time. My wife was very interested in participating in the pray
meeting. After some weeks (June of 2009), I had no places to go to
spend time. Then I also came to the pray meeting because I had no any
other option. On that day, Lalith thaththa was explaining the Holly
Word. Actually here my English knowledge is not enough to express what
happened to me at that day. Lalith thaththa's words fell into my heart
just like an anchor. I realized how much I opposed to Jesus. I
understood all my sins, and all those sins came to the top of my head.
From that day, we continued the participation in the pray meeting. One
day, when we participated in the pray meeting at Negombo, Anton
thaththa explained the Holy Word. On that day, Jesus touched me.
Normally when I wake up in the morning, all my debt problems come to my
mind and from the morning I was suffering from head ache, pressure. But
after Jesus touched me, in the morning of the next day, I thought why
those problems did not come to my mind. Although I needed to think of
them, I could not do that. What a freedom! Praise Jesus! Praise the
Lord! Not only that but also my anger towards my parents in law,
vanished. That anger became just like dry. Praise Jesus! Praise the
One day I met Lalith thaththa at Thabor and he told me to participate
in the Four Steps Retreat at Ja Ela. Accordingly, we participated in
the Four Steps Retreat at Ja Ela last year. After that Four Steps
Retreat, I went for a confession after about 20 years. Now I have
become a new man. I feel the freedom of the brightness of Jesus. Still
the problems are around me just like lava, because my debt problems
still remains same (not same but increasing day by day), but inside of
my heart, I have a massive freedom.
Now I say this sentence honestly “I thank Jesus for giving me this big
problem which has still no solution”, because I met Jesus because of
this problem. Jesus made me fallen to get closer to Him.
Anton thaththa helped us so much to solve our problem. I got counsel
from Anton thaththa several times and he made my parents in law
understood about my debt problem. Till Anton thaththa revealed them
about our actual situation, my parents in law did not know our debt
problem. Explaining to them about our problem was a very difficult and
tough task, because my parents in law are most probably unchangeable.
But proving the fact that nothing is impossible to the God, now my
parents in law are willing to sell their only land with living home and
to settle my debt problems. Thank you Jesus for healing me. Praise
Jesus! Praise the Lord! Alleluia ! Alleluia ! I had no solution for my
debt problem. But although still it was not solved or the solution was
not still executed, now I have a solution - selling the land with our
Now Jesus has given me 3 miracles.
1. The freedom in my heart from my debt problem, although debt amount is increasing day by day.
2. Disappearance of my anger towards my parents in law.
3. The conversion of my parents in law.
These things are not possible to the human.
All what I have to say about the Community of Risen Lord is what says in Jacob 5;19 of the Holy Bible.
My experience is - The Lord shows the man his past and present but
keeps hidden the future of the man. If we try ourselves to decide our
future which we can never see with human mind, that is where we go
wrong in our lives. We should hand over our lives and the future to the
Lord for His plans, then we can have the peace and the pleasure of
Thank you Jesus! Alleluia ! Alleluia ! Praise the Lord !
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